A Misdirected Passion

…In a wholly senseless dream

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Death of the body is nothing
Death of the mind is all
Death of the deathly mind
That seeks to know itself in form

Death of the heartless body
That suffers, falls and dies
Is nothing to deciding to
Awake from deathly lies

My mind is dead already
All I see is war
Conflicting tongues pull out their guns
Travail: the body’s law

Attacked, I am attacking
Or this I wouldn’t see
Beneath my mask of smiles
The darkness hides my murdering

My mind it is the murderer
My eyes perceive the form
Of ancient grievances
That propagate what’s earthly born

Destruction is the engine
This entrenched, deluded mind
Is desperate to presume control
Of what it cannot find

So death is my salvation
Whichever way I die
Death of the body serves the mind
That wants to stay in time

But what I choose to kill
Marks out the different paths I’m shown
A murderer I’ll be
Whichever way I choose to go

And death will feel the same
Whichever way around I die
The difference only
Death once or another thousand times

And so I make my choice
Within the dreaming of the world
I choose to die to death
And all its extraneous forms

I choose to see the minds
That are at war within my own
As one conglomeration
One single form, my home

And as I enter into
Each and every one I see
As I receive them, cellularly
Energetically

They penetrate my being
With their anger and their fear
Every attack I’m humbled to
Receive and hold so dear

As they become the one
That stood here, separate and alone
The death of all their dying
That I’d savoured in my tomb…

Becomes our sacred joining
As the two become the same
The million-bodied one
Is sanctified within my heart again

And as the phoenix rises
From the mighty mountain side
Her wings translucent fire
And her scream a wakening cry

The souls that cried within my own
Released to freedom’s shore
Their own decision reigns
But this true gift remains for all

That there is nothing left
Of space and time and putrid form
That into the immensity
Of holy life we’re born

We stand upon the parapet
Infinite space below
We sense the rushing of the wind
Into the void we flow

And, falling, we can understand
The body’s ever been
A misdirected passion
In a wholly senseless dream

Excavating Eternity

…From the density of the human mind in time

Two angels comforting each other, having taking off their wings after a hard day’s work!
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The world is not a beautiful or pleasurable place
Though instants of eternity can be revealed through grace
Heaven is accessible, but only out-of-time
Standing in the ever present love of the divine

Hell is what I see when I’m determined that I’m here
On a time line, going to be dead, but ‘not yet there’
Watching suffering grow upon the simple hearted brow
Of the brothers I adore and wish that I could show..

..All of my experiences that you don’t have to be
Living in the painful supposition of a dream
But that you can waken, not through dark conspiracies;
Fearful ideas that still tell you you’re not free..

..That you’re being controlled by something else that is ‘out there’
Separate from the mind that you believe you cannot share
That’s another part of nothing, not to be indulged 
In the precious, perfect mind that you can know and love

The world is not a real place, although it seems to be
It’s a painful joke constructed by the hurt in me
My insane decision not to know the truth I am
To separate myself from that which pours love into suffering ‘man’

Beauty comes and goes in a world that’s built on time
Destruction is the certainty to which all form runs blind
But beauty is the ever-changing, never-changing whole
That is your mind in singularity, your Self, your soul

Time is an illusion so if I believe I’ll be
Sometime or another cast within my coffin’s sleep
Waiting for the fire that makes no more my body lie
Wretched, stinking, fetid, as it rots now that it’s died

There’s no separation, so there’s no reality
..To the thought of time that wends on, hurting, wearily
If I think that I can die, then certain — dead I am
As I assert my right to ‘live’ within this separate, suffering, dram

I’ll be standing there, watching the mourners talk of me
I’ll be separate then, if I am separate now within a dream
The dream of death continues, no escape is to be found
Through to life, eternity, at God’s illumined hand

I’ll be here in space and time until I choose to see
That waking to the fruits of life to taste their energy
Can only be achieved by a surrender here in time
A throwing up of hands, a diving into seas divine

An open hearted “Help!” that suffers not the fear or woe
Of myriad circumspections that within their concepts grow
In my crucial moment I was standing at the sea
Contemplating fear that all around me seemed to breathe

“If this is life, then it is not a life that I can lead”
I declared, and still declare, as I decide to be..
..What lies past the troubled foaming broth of human life in time:
I excavate eternity from density of mind

Indivisible

A lesson received from a palm tree on a wholly beautiful night

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Precious union
One Mind speaking
To me or from me?
No distance
Indivisible

A voice within the mind
Addressing itself
But from far beyond
It’s tiny walls of self
And yet itself still

Larger
Infinite in magnitude
Wholly inclusive
Everything

The recognition
That we address each other
Simultaneously
With the same words

Undifferentiated
Subjective
All within
Infinite in capacity
Unencumbered

Graceful
Gorgeous
Pure
Indivisible

The Sacred Meeting

I have nothing to do but fall in love
The passionate wakings of my heart desire to keep, to enfold every human being within its infinite well
I have only love for you
In your shock, in your devastation, in your silent unheard longing for a reason, any reason at all
I am here for you
I cannot understand a hardened mind but love can penetrate, creeping, and find the vulnerability of a separated soul
Lost and alone and in desperate need of release from its self-evident constriction
Let me take you inside me
Inside my energetic structure, far beyond bodily or physical concerns
Let me take you into me
Penetrate my deepest longing to communicate with what I have held outside myself
Let me let you inside
Where we meet in gentle recognition of Self-hood conflict is forever loosened, the rusted grievance lubricated and released, nothing holds us together in solitude and anguish anymore
We can meet in gratitude
We can meet in certainty
We can meet, we can only meet, in love

Be Nothing

Be nothing
Being nothing
Is being Everything

Be nothing here
If you are something in a place of nothing
You are nothing in a place of Everything

How to be nothing?
Well, don’t be something!
Divest yourself momentarily of the need to be something
Divest yourself entirely of the need to be anything

Be nothing
Let Everything show you what you are
How can Everything show you One-thing
If you’re already something (that is nothing?)

You are already Everything!
Beyond That is nothing!
Outside That is nothing.

You, here, now, divested of everything
Be Nothing
Know Nothing
See Nothing
Let yourself be shown Something

That is My Mind

Space
Infinite glorious spaciousness
That is my mind

That table is my mind
That war is my mind

Crashing clashing
Conflict of tortured souls
Intricate beauty
Beyond my false projection
That is my mind

Happiness
Joyful expansive reflection of light
That is my mind

Terrible contraction of space-time
Ignorance
Death urge
Panic-stricken
Desperation
Anguish
That, that is my mind

Contemplative
Gentle
Peace
Renowned enlightened expression
Deep wisdom
Truth

That is my mind

Murderous raging rampage
Sultry sensual temptress
Indignant hostile fire
Cool, cold-shouldered turning away

Pain
Stabbing heartbreak
Sorrow

Vicious attack
Incarceration
Irretrievable blow

That, that pain is my mind
That lashes out, indestructible, unrecognisable angst, hell-fire raging in the soul
Temptation to drown, to crush and to kill
That, that too is my mind

The world is my mind
No escaping totality

Responsibility
Whole and unequivocal
Rests on my solid shoulders of separate self

Requires
Desperately seeks
Desires conversion

Receives totally
In its totality

Perfectly simple
Affording perfect peace

Separate self
Alone in guilt
Whole mind
Releasing all of form

Ministry beginning
Wholeness awakening in the one that says
That, that, that is my mind