Tag: release

The Railings of My Cell

Finding my way to the beginning

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I beat upon the railings of my cell
When I discovered them
I found the walls that kept me
In my self-constructed hell
I walked the steps that then appeared
And met the maker of my show
The self that I’d projected
Onto God and onto you as well

I’d sailed within the darkness
And beneath the sunshine’s balmy glow
Until I’d brought the storms that raged
And fought the battle with my foe
The self that is deluded
And determined to be bound
Attacks with rabid vengeance
As my cries to freedom sound

The depths of my discovery
That haunted me these live-long years
The clues, so reprehensible
To all that tried to keep me here
In chains of insecurity
The fear of being free
Of being light and magnitude
The power I now see

You can’t beat a cacophony
Upon the walls that keep you bound
Until you have discovered them
And know where they are found
You can’t confront the God you made
Your maker can’t defy
Until you find him standing
Deep within your self-fuelled lies

You cannot choose escape
Until you understand you’re bound
Can’t cast a restless beat upon your bars
Until they’re found
So make the mission of your life
(The quest will serve you well)
To find the edge of what you’ve made
The railings of your cell

In My Desire to be Free

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An instant of loving communication

A person meditating on a rug with lanterns either side of them, overlooking a beautiful lake and mountains
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A silent smile within the heart
A grace that lets the waters start to run
An opening upon my brow
And my body is alive again
With the pulsing energy of your release

A gentle opening within,
The centre breaking open
To admit an aurora of heavenly sensations

Light fills my body
Drenching my heart, my throat, my bodily mind
Deposing my form and loosening binds to all that I believed myself attached to
Just one instant before

Vibrations become me
My whole experience
My whole identity
Relieved from the suffering of separate responses
And separate forms

Breathe in gratitude
Breath becomes light
Energy dethroning form
Visceral, thick, flowing through extremities
Expanding their walls
Searing within
Revealing depths of unhidden space

I can meet you here
I can invite you deep into this circumstance
Deep into this sphere of relief, of releasing mind
I can see you, vivid and alive, shining within the greater mind that we share
Shining upon me, in all the glory misinterpreted through separate mind 
As distinct from what I am

It is in our shared mind,
The mind that encompasses the whole,
That is the whole
The mind that, in singularity, is my mind
This is where I find you
This is where I receive you
And this is where I adore you,
Forever, in this timeless instant of eternal communication
In my desire to be free

The Piano

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The notes that fall within the fertile soul

Abstract image with water, sky (above and below the water), a mountain, and something resembling a broken down piano
Author image, thanks to NightCafe AI Art Generator — Prompt by Hoagie

I am the piano, your fingers work the keys
And every breath of life that I’ve resisted is released
I am the piano, your fingers write the chords
I’m here beneath your fingertips, they intonate the words
Words like water, lilting phrases, stimulating tenderly
Rivers that exist within and far beyond the body that you see
As I am lying open hearted here before
The grace that feels the majesty of music at its core

Music is the water, emotion is the song
Translated to energy as we move beyond
Form and time and space and things that troubled beauty held
And restitute eternity with every blessed swell
As the zephyr rises and the crest is peaked to fall
Rolling as it rose, a building magnitude, a wall
Power built on power in its ever gliding roar
Soaring us to certainties we’ve never felt before

I’m delighted by the prospect, joyful rich simplicity
Unabashed by troubles cast within the world of empty dreams
To enjoy the consequence of driving forth the winding snares
That beheld uncertainty, the fear of loss, infinite cares
Woe betide the one who seeks to hold what cannot be
But the merest wisp of heaven cast within a dream
Let us rise beyond the dearth of this beguiling coup
Subjugating, pacifying, stifled and subdued

Contrast with the beneficent hope of certainty
Deep within the heart in this impeccable release
Rich in beauty, seamless joy, home to perfect mind
Infinitely pure and gentle, always soft and kind
Rising with the climax of the swelling melody
Bodies used as vessels of communication, peace
Intricate in glory, manifested through the words
Spoken by the keys as their caresses are expressed, adjourned

My heart holds the strings that feel the hammer’s mighty blow
Raining tones of complex beauty fall within the flow
Wrested deathly from the minor depths, released to soar
Out into a universe it’s never known before
I become the notes as you express your clarity
That the grace you play from knows the truth that we are free
Freedom is the tide that carries every one back home
As the notes that fall within the fertile soul are sown

Within This Instant

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A very singular solution

Worlds being grown in petri dishes
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Let me give this day to you in gratitude for all the peace you’ve given
And continue to within the certainty I’m living through you
In this present, glorious, powerful security
That deep within and far beyond the world of form I’m free

The separate mind is a confusion of a billion troubled cares
Confessing instability, transgressions, unaware
Of all the power that is circulating through its very veins and nervous system 
As it shuns the thoughts that it itself has given
But has bound up in a memory that seems to play before its eyes
Surpassing inhibitions, heedless to its troubled cries

Into this belief in anguished nothingness the answer comes
And offers to the asking mind one solution to its myriad questions
In a singular experience that shows
Far beyond misapprehension that the world is grown inside a petri dish 
Within the stark laboratory of separate mind
That seeks to circumvent responsibility for what it finds
For what it fears, as, troubled now, unconscious, disbelieving 
Of ‘the how’ the world is made each instant
Deep within the tempest of its own beliefs and every thought it thinks
And everything it sees; the circular experience of fathering a dream

In gratitude I give this day to you as I begin to see
That deep within the dreaming of such instability
There falls and lies and rises through the misted anguish that I knew before
A new interpretation that will feed me at my core

We know that a theology on which every mind can agree
Is stark impossibility and not to be alluded to or dreamed
But an experience that takes each mind beyond the tramp
Of trudging through the suffering of pain unto indignity
That takes the hand and leads the dance out to the starry universe
Beyond what it had previously allowed itself to know and see
But accessed only deep within and centred through the body mind
A root that guides the self to the experience that its free

A common experience is ours to know, indeed

I rest within my gratitude, my rancour is dispersed and cowed
As to this great awakening I open and allow myself 
To conjugate and be the beauty of the universal peace of clarity
As all I’ve been, within this instant, is released

Just.. Wait!

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A perfect paradox

An ancient grove of trees, moss and colourful flowers with a path leading along the valley and up the mountain. AI Art Generator.
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Just wait! Wait a moment
Do not troubled be,
That everything you had believed before
Is being released

Just wait! Wait deep within
The mystery that you’re shown,
Dismiss the need to understand
The beauty that you’ve sown

Wait! Wait for eternity
To open up inside,
It’s beating heart’s within your own
As you let yourself start to glide

Wait upon the moment
Of such glorious certainty,
That stops you in your tracks
And guarantees your future peace

Wait upon the something
That is pushing through the glebe,
Gasping for a breath of sunshine
On its tiny leaves

Wait within establishment
And watch its crumbling walls,
Apprehend its leaving 
As within, without, it falls

Take your prior complexity
Uproot it at its core,
Loose the mind that sought for freedom
In the dearth of ‘more’

Feel your way to present bliss
As you begin to see
That everything you’ve ever dreamed of
Lives eternally

Nothing here in form 
Can ever feed or ever give
The light you need
To understand what it is to live

Nothing here in form 
Can ever feed or ever raise
The light you need to see within
For you to feel praised

Nothing in the nothingness of form
Can ever show
The beauty that admits a glimpse beyond
To what you’ve always known

Nothing in the nothingness of time
Can ever be
What you are, what you’re being given,
Just you wait and see!

This Blessed Flow

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A poem about dissolving into the mind that writes the poetry

A moody cloudy red sky over a beautiful still ocean.
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My mind, it thinks in poetry
I cannot quell this blessed flow,
As, hungry, I bequeath myself
To savoured riches I am shown

Cascading joys of ancient knowledge
Breaking through containered hoards
Of fantasy I drove before me,
Burdened by decisions worn

I humbly open to your mind
And let the hero of the dream,
The master I’d been playing
In the one repeating scene,

Return in his humility
To what he knows is ever true,
That all the meaning he’s been searching for
Is found in you

Between the saturated masts 
That line the wild tempestuous bay,
I’m redefined in solitude 
My fears are washed away

Remorse and ancient pity
Take their place now, side by side,
They’re sunk within the oceans
Of an ever grateful mind

And glinting on the surface
Of the ever changing whole,
Is changelessness itself
Arising in the wakening soul

It glistens at my heart as I 
In decadence disband
The citadel that was constructed
With my charred and earth worn hands

A limitless horizon
Disappears before my eyes,
The world succumbs to beauty
And a fire fills the skies

The fire meets the water 
And they merge into the one
That mystifies the mind
That separation has become

And I am lifted out of seeming
As I fall within
The body of this dreaming heart
That witnessed to my sin

The sin of separation 
Is now gently washed away,
As deep within the waters of the mind
I find my way

Tsunami Rising

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On being washed away forever

A very stormy sea with one enormous wave, a moody sky behind with the sun breaking through
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The depths of life that spring from me
As I decide, within your freedom
Now, to let these mysteries
Evolve within your certainty

I witness to the rising of the tide
Upon a swelling sea,
A wave ascending in my breadth
Encompassing all I have been

Then bursting forth through troubled seams
That tried to hold and held no more,
Exploding past the girth 
That I had tightened till my sides were sore

And as I seek to cast my net
In wider climes than heretofore,
I’m tumbled from the vessel 
I’d been sailing to the shore

A vast arising wells below,
Upsetting all the plans I’d laid
Within my static grieving woe:
A desperate heart resolved to hide

With windows shaken to their soul
And shattered glass upon the floor,
I’m hurled into reality
A course I’ve never known before

I feel the wakings of a mind
That’s never let the love of souls
Interpolate, become at once
A dazzling faultless star filled whole

And in these dreams where memory
Had held itself so fast and sure,
Capitulation bows to freedom
Devastation rules no more

I wake into the breathless air
The sunshine beating on my skin,
I rise as from the depths of care
To claim what life is nourishing

I’m reconfigured from the old
Interpreted all fresh and new,
The language that I spoke before
Has been released, replaced, renewed

And as I cry humility
Comes rolling ‘cross the pummelled sands,
Approaching ever closer 
To the place in which I stand

And as I laugh and let my mind
Be raised unto these heightened views,
I witness to the depths of life
Arising in myself in you

Freedom’s Welcome

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Here are the lyrics to one of my songs

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I don’t believe in the lightning that floors the trees
But in its passionate force I retrieve myself
Floating amid a dark storm I called grief
It’s a bolt driven home through insanity’s hold

And I won’t believe in the self that was hateful 
I’m regenerated, born into stability
Wrapped in the grace of my own last resort
I find gentle humility turning to port

And my anchor’s not tied to the sea’s rocky floor
Where it ripped up the surface and cut to the core
It’s invested at last in a promise that’s kept
As eternity melts into all that I’d wept for

And rids me of any last necessity
To hold onto my fear or to doubt that I’m free
As the sun glistens clear through the depths of the waves
My presence is here and my past is erased

I am freedom’s welcome
The increase in gravity offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

And cast into the fire of all I once believed
Is the certain release of all I have perceived
And incredulously, I find myself free
When I choose to accept total responsibility

And the only response I can give
To all that I see now to ensure it lives
Is to breathe it on home, and to know that it’s mine
’Cause perception’s a dream, and reflections divine

Are created the moment I open my mind
To a generous beauty that words cannot find
I allow myself here, I allow myself now
Because everything else is as boring as hell

And reality’s sight is so deliciously
Full of light and of freedom, the juicy totality
Rises to greet the new mind that I am
And all my reflections stand here hand in hand

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in sanity offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

Grace, so still, invisible to me
In each moment previously

Is holding my heart in the palm of its hand
Is providing the runway on which I can land
Is here and is now, in this space and this time
Is directing these passions, providing these rhymes

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in frequency offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in frequency offers my gratitude
Peace and eternity
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

Listen

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A poem received in a moment of listening

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There’s a silence that is golden
That is falling all around
If you listen you can hear it
In the air and through the ground

There’s a peaceful marching power
That is growing ever strong
In the mystery of this instant 
You can feel it striding on

It’s the whirling of the rushing wind
The motion of the sea
The coursing of the river 
On its way to being free

It’s the galloping of hooves 
Upon the gently giving sand
It’s the take off as the hunk of metal 
Rises from the land

It’s truth defying form
As density’s released to light
It’s the wings that lift the delicate
Within their dream of flight

It’s the flame that burns within your heart
As you decide to see
That deep within the self you think you know
You’re always free

It waits within my consciousness 
I wake to it and breathe
Its choir of perfect harmony 
Becomes the heart of me

I rest within the gratitude 
Of knowing I am whole
That this fragmented dream
Was over long long long ago

I rest within the beauty 
Of the heart no trouble sees
As the darkest pain of suffering
Is all released through me

I rest within the certainty 
That I will play my part
On the stage that I’m constructing 
With the eyes that see the dark

I rest within the grace
Of myriad subtle energies
That satiate eternally 
The ache of human need

I rest within the power
Of the light that is my home
As eternally I’m gentled 
And eternally I’m known

If Only We’d Know

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Letting in the life that is waiting to grow

The sun breaking through the clouds, shining on different layers of worlds
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A space in the sunshine of dreams
Has opened, responding to calling for more
A grip on the life that held meaning for me
Is released as desire cracks open a core
That was dark with defences, its surface rock hard
The light that pours through makes me choke for a moment
As breath enters in where before it was barred
And a blue swirling centre is unlocked, unsown

Now I can see you 
And breathe my inheritance
Though I’m restricted 
By thoughts of intelligence
Wisdom and pride
That will anger my core
If they’re questioned or queried
Held up to abhor

But within the catastrophe of how I’ve failed
To begin to be happy through telling my tales
With this rushing of energy into the void
Comes life unabashed, unrelenting, devoid
Of the suffering, long underpinning a woe
That releases each instant if only we’d know
That this deep precious moment, the centre of mind
Our attention can pierce, our presence can find

It can only be known, it can only be seen
Through the eyes of a dreamer who ceases to dream
Through the heart of a speaker who ceases to speak
Through the might of a thinker refusing to think
For themselves, who lets heavenly thoughts cast their moors
Within their deep harbours, upon their bleak shores
And lets in the life that is waiting to grow
Within us each moment, if only we’d know