Alive Within Your Heart

An experience I received and that I cherish deeply — and pray to keep alive and powerful within my mind

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Let me be created by you
On this day and every day
Let my heart be opened 
By the voice that paves the way

In this blessed instant
To the love I’ve always craved 
Opening, awakening to
Your beauty and your grace

No more do I depend
On those who walk in form
Now I am complete
Within the heart that’s ever warm

Ever rich in comfort
Ever offering me its own
Light that flows in rivers strong
That feeds the seeds it’s sown

Now I know your nourishment
Your warmth and gentle grace
Ever strong within me
All my darkness to replace

Now I know the strength of those 
Who walk within your love
Never more will care be worn 
While this mind’s thinking of…

Pondering and resting on,
Receiving what you are
I’ll never be alone
Now you’re alive within my heart

All There Is To Find

The seeking heart must some day find its gold

Under the surface of the sea, light rays shining in, beautiful clear water but you can feel the weight and the depth at the bottom
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I want to tread the deeper dives
Where blessings hold beneath the flow
The stillest waters, richest tides
A sweetness brought to light, sublime

A travesty it feels to give
Only this superficial slant
Fragmented personality
Divorced from what I can’t reveal

I want to tread the deeper dives
And stem the tide of surface flow
That, jesting, as its joker’s wont
Has ridiculed the depths I know

I want to be a truthful one
Who shows the innards of its own
Who casts an acted part aside
Its timbre ceased, its wings unflown

I want to ride the waves of flow
That authenticity has wed
To leap unbridled on the growing
Self that has straight past me sped

I want to know what lies beyond
Within and at the core of me
I want to let the self be dead
That still affronts, entangles me

I want to feel the death, complete
Of all that I have willed and known
I want to leap, unfathomed depths
Beneath me as I fall below

I want to hurry to the cliff 
And wrest this putrid body home
And catapult the self that shames itself
Upon the rocky road

I want the death that’s promised me
Within the pages of the tomes
The script that’s written, hands of light 
Bequeathing all the joy they know

I want to die a thousand deaths
To everything that I have made
And watch with gentle gratitude
As what I truly am is cradled

Gently by the opening shaft
Of sunshine that has borne the child
That I have never known before
Whose smiling beauty makes me wild

With happiness, an opening hearted
Calmness and tranquillity
Encompasses the instant
That I finally feel free

So if you look to find me
And you see that I have gone
And all that’s left is peacefulness
A gentle hearted song

All you can find is writing
Carved upon an ancient wall
This joyful death, with life becoming
Everything and all

If all you find within the tomb
Of death defying Will
Is that which troubles heaven
Not a syllable or swell

If all you find is gratitude
Within a peaceful mind
You’ve found the place where I discovered
All there is to find

The Spirit’s Sight

Bearing witness to the light beyond the dream

The sun blazing out on the horizon above trees on a gently sloping hill, opening up into a gloriously blue sky
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I know how to do it
It’s the simplest thing I’ve learned
To set you free from your misery
To witness you rise and turn

I know how to do it
It’s the simplest thing I know
To watch you free, in the heart of peace
Your roots reaching down as you grow

I know how to find you
In your happiest place of cheer
Alive with hope, descending the stopes
Of a lifetime forgiven and dear

I know how to meet you
Happy, alive and free
Released from the past, the heavens at last
Joyfully opening

I know how to free you
And how to see you now
It’s the simplest thing I could ever bring
To the moment I fully allow

I know how to witness
Your perfect liberty
I can see in my mind, pure present and kind
Your gentle majesty

I know how to be present
With the truth that lives in you
I see through the veil, torn, rented, assailed
To the light that’s shining through

I know how to love you
Wholly, impeccably
It’s the only way I can love what I made
If I see it as part of me

I know how to love you
The only way is to see
The shining light that clarifies sight
Beyond the dark body

The only way to know you
The only way to find
The love that you are in my deepest of hearts
Is to see you in light in my mind

I know how to do it
I know how to be free
I’ve witnessed the truth of His gentle ruth
In the light I know as me

I know how to do it
In happiness I’m home
I witness your light in His perfect sight
And totality is my throne

Your Perfect Holiness

A lesson in wholeness and gratitude from A Course in Miracles

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The grasses they are speaking
The holy world is wide
Communicating with you
Your own dear breadth of mind

The universe is watching
And loving all you do
The spirit’s soul, perfection, whole
Is loving only you

Every breath you follow
To your sacred unity
Extends from deep within you
And blesses all you see

In every footstep you’re renewed
Releasing all to Him
Who’s heart, its rhythmic beating song
Gathers you deep within

“All things that live bring gifts to you, and offer them in gratitude and gladness at your feet. The scent of flowers is their gift to you. The waves bow down before you, and the trees extend their arms to shield you from the heat, and lay their leaves before you on the ground that you may walk in softness, while the wind sinks to a whisper round your holy head.”

A Course in Miracles, Workbook Lesson 156 — I Walk with God in Perfect Holiness

“Your plan I follow here, and at the end I know that You will gather Your effects into the tranquil Heaven of Your Love, where earth will vanish, and all separate thoughts unite in glory as the Son of God.”

A Course in Miracles, Workbook Lesson 326 — I Am Forever an Effect of God

I Entered In

The gifts that greet the grateful soul

Pink centred sun, womb, fire, abstract beauty
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I entered in the womb of God
It was your body, opened wide
From base to crown an opening of light
Arose before my eyes

It beckoned me to enter in
And taste the pleasures of the soul
And feel the glorious pressure 
Of the mind becoming whole

I entered in the womb of God
And at your heart that opened wide
A blessing to consume me
As I stripped to bare and dived

A flow, innate, of gratitude
Did humble me wherein I knew
The love of God surrounding me:
Synonymous with you

The walls were lush and turgid
As between them I did glide
Ever moving inward to the
Sacred space inside

A space where I am nourished
To the essence of my core
A comfort of such density
Aliveness, gentle warmth

The walls they hold me centred
Their pressure meets my need
For comfort and security
My everlasting greed

Insatiable desire
To be held, to feel at home
To lie and rest in certainty
That I am not alone

I feel the grateful rhythms
Of a heart that’s guiding true
Every mind that comes to him
For comfort and for ruth

I rest within a body
That body is your mind
I have a cord that feeds me
Without forage or find

I rest within your gentleness
Your peace is all I know
I rest within your certainty
Within your peace I grow

I enter in your kingdom
To rest a while from form
Till I’m released from density
Then from this place I’m born

Dear John

Lyrics and video for one of my songs

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Dear John 
By which I mean the planet I’ve been living on 
For so long 
Dear John

Dear John 
By which I mean the fear that has been so strong 
In my mind 
So long

Dear John 
By which I mean the planet I’ve been living on 
For so long 
So long

Dear John 
By which I mean the body I’ve been speaking from 
The idea in my mind that kept my fear strong 
So strong 
So long

Dear John 
By which I mean the planet I’ve been living on 
The beings I’ve shared ideas of identity through physicality 
With for so long 
So long

If you look at me quantumly you’ll see I’m gone 
Was never here 
I’m gone

The love we’ve shared in truth is all that’s still strong 
Ideas of physicality are long gone 
Long gone 
Dear John

And I’ve come here to share a new idea so strong in me 
It’s so strong 
To tell you if you’re fearful or you’re lonely 
That it won’t be long

I’ve come to share my certainty that truth is all that’s left of me 
That I was wrong 
I’ve come to share my certainty that we were only ever free 
To love and loose the bounds of time 
From all that we had thought we’d seen 
Dear John, dear John

And now we dance forever to the songs we wrote together in eternity 
We’re free, dear John 
Dear John, we’re free 
Dear John

Dear John 
If you look through the eyes that can see quantumly 
You’ll see, we’re gone 
With love, Dear John

Free

Lyrics and live video of one of my songs

A beautiful lake with trees all around and mountains in the background underneath a golden full moon
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I willingly slip into the waters that run
Deep within the self that I’ve begun to get to know
Deep within the self I choose to be
As I learn to let go of the dreaming of duality

And this time I let myself fall
Welcome the comfort of the arms that aid my understanding
You are my canvas covered walls
You are the structure that gives shelter where I’m standing
And each time you call
I’ll be there in leaps and bounds will fly across the heather
For our laughter says it all
The love that I’ve found here rips apart my twisted tether and I’m free

I’m free

I willingly slip into the riches that hide
Deep within this force of light, the power of my mind
Deep within the self that I am shown
As I raise my eyes and take this power as my own

From this time I decide to be
Everything that I’ve discovered in the light of love’s direction
Now I accept that I am free
And I believe all that I see within the light of love’s reflection
Each time you need me
I’ll be here in love with every joy and every sorrow
For I have faith in the love I breathe
And I offer it up anytime for you to borrow for it’s free

It’s free

In My Desire to be Free

An instant of loving communication

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A silent smile within the heart
A grace that lets the waters start to run
An opening upon my brow
And my body is alive again
With the pulsing energy of your release

A gentle opening within,
The centre breaking open
To admit an aurora of heavenly sensations

Light fills my body
Drenching my heart, my throat, my bodily mind
Deposing my form and loosening binds to all that I believed myself attached to
Just one instant before

Vibrations become me
My whole experience
My whole identity
Relieved from the suffering of separate responses
And separate forms

Breathe in gratitude
Breath becomes light
Energy dethroning form
Visceral, thick, flowing through extremities
Expanding their walls
Searing within
Revealing depths of unhidden space

I can meet you here
I can invite you deep into this circumstance
Deep into this sphere of relief, of releasing mind
I can see you, vivid and alive, shining within the greater mind that we share
Shining upon me, in all the glory misinterpreted through separate mind 
As distinct from what I am

It is in our shared mind,
The mind that encompasses the whole,
That is the whole
The mind that, in singularity, is my mind
This is where I find you
This is where I receive you
And this is where I adore you,
Forever, in this timeless instant of eternal communication
In my desire to be free

The Veil

That perfect moment in the depths of the full moon when you realise that everything is alive

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Times when the veil is thin
And all of life breaks open within
The light in the sky is a thunderous din
As she wakes me from slumber to welcome her in

All is wild and alive
The attributes of an opening mind
The raining of stars in a heart that’s revived
From deep tender longing to finally arrive

Solid, beating, tranquil, true
Right in the centre that forms the root
From which the highest certainty rules
Directing the mind that inherently values

Her pulsing, gentle, articulate beat
The accompanying tide at her moonlit feet
That gives and receives through her rhythmic, sweet
Impossibly powerful, full, mystique

The heart of heaven is felt within
Her rising, beautiful, star-filled brim
Expanding as the enchanted sing
The angels’ chorus, enlightened, begins

I wake and feel the thinning veil
Rent and ripped in tatters and tails
Spinning useless upon the gales
Of an open mind, released from its trails

I wake and feel the parted seams
Releasing me to beyond my dreams
As the wildest gentlest shining gleams
Reflect within my heart as it beams

Stemming the Tide

A futile attempt!

A beautiful, gentle stream, bubbling over rocks, winding between wooded banks
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All I can tell you is that I’ve tried
To quell this energy, to stem this tide
I’ve spent a lifetime alone with these words
Wondering if they’ll be written or heard

All I can tell you, all that I know
Is that these shoots have been dying to grow
And now their trouble is quelled and dismayed
Shelved and uprooted, dismissed and betrayed

All I can tell you, all that I see
Now I’m allowing this water to bleed
Stream through the cracks of my travestied crimes
Soulful expressions of opening mind

All I can tell you is that I’m free
From my desires and grave inconsistencies
All that I’ve misunderstood and denied
Previous decisions, washed out with the tide

All I can tell you, all that I know
Is that the seeds have already been sown
There’s no returning, there’s no going on 
To a life I have lived many times and is done

All I am learning now, through this dismay
Is that the form of things is my delay
All I’ve discovered is all that I need
A space beyond time that is welcoming me

All that is opening, all I can tell
Is that this newness will counter the spell
Of the becoming that I tried to be
In the dark depths of illusory dreams

All I can tell you about where I’ve gone
In the deep spaces, discovering my songs
Is the magnificence, far beyond words
Finding the phrases that want to be heard

All I can tell you is that I’ve tried
To quell the certainty swelling inside
But I have failed, it has risen right through
Every expression of wholehearted truth

With my decision to be who I am
All that I wanted before is closed down
All that I wanted and all that I’ll be
Is right here right now in this instant with me