AuDHD

I’ve recently discovered that I’m not only autistic, which I was diagnosed with when I was 35 in 2018, but that I’m also a (currently self-diagnosed) ADHD-er. This puts me in the realm of AuDHD.

The understanding that I have ADHD has been a huge breakthrough for me. Traits that I didn’t understand and despaired of, and that I seemed to be constantly fighting against with no sense of hope for the future, have been explained to me in simple terms, alongside strategies and mechanisms for managing myself in more effective ways.

I understand my neurodivergence as a gift, which, when I have learned how to properly accept and support myself, will play a whole and beautiful part in my purpose of extending my music, and the light and love I have received, into the world. 

I am delighted to report that I have already started working on my music again, which has been blocked for many, many years; organising my songs, making small beginnings with recording, and generally feeling that flow beginning to move again. 

I am at the beginning of an ‘unmasking’ process. I’m beginning to see how I’ve been hiding, censoring myself, and putting unnecessary pressure on myself to conform to conventional social and interrelational ‘norms’ for a long, long time (forever).

Even understanding that this process is a possibility has given me a huge sense of release, of opening, and of hope for the healing of my mind! God is good, the only purpose is healing, and my heart is full of gratitude and joy.