A Misdirected Passion

…In a wholly senseless dream

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Death of the body is nothing
Death of the mind is all
Death of the deathly mind
That seeks to know itself in form

Death of the heartless body
That suffers, falls and dies
Is nothing to deciding to
Awake from deathly lies

My mind is dead already
All I see is war
Conflicting tongues pull out their guns
Travail: the body’s law

Attacked, I am attacking
Or this I wouldn’t see
Beneath my mask of smiles
The darkness hides my murdering

My mind it is the murderer
My eyes perceive the form
Of ancient grievances
That propagate what’s earthly born

Destruction is the engine
This entrenched, deluded mind
Is desperate to presume control
Of what it cannot find

So death is my salvation
Whichever way I die
Death of the body serves the mind
That wants to stay in time

But what I choose to kill
Marks out the different paths I’m shown
A murderer I’ll be
Whichever way I choose to go

And death will feel the same
Whichever way around I die
The difference only
Death once or another thousand times

And so I make my choice
Within the dreaming of the world
I choose to die to death
And all its extraneous forms

I choose to see the minds
That are at war within my own
As one conglomeration
One single form, my home

And as I enter into
Each and every one I see
As I receive them, cellularly
Energetically

They penetrate my being
With their anger and their fear
Every attack I’m humbled to
Receive and hold so dear

As they become the one
That stood here, separate and alone
The death of all their dying
That I’d savoured in my tomb…

Becomes our sacred joining
As the two become the same
The million-bodied one
Is sanctified within my heart again

And as the phoenix rises
From the mighty mountain side
Her wings translucent fire
And her scream a wakening cry

The souls that cried within my own
Released to freedom’s shore
Their own decision reigns
But this true gift remains for all

That there is nothing left
Of space and time and putrid form
That into the immensity
Of holy life we’re born

We stand upon the parapet
Infinite space below
We sense the rushing of the wind
Into the void we flow

And, falling, we can understand
The body’s ever been
A misdirected passion
In a wholly senseless dream

The Railings of My Cell

Finding my way to the beginning

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I beat upon the railings of my cell
When I discovered them
I found the walls that kept me
In my self-constructed hell
I walked the steps that then appeared
And met the maker of my show
The self that I’d projected
Onto God and onto you as well

I’d sailed within the darkness
And beneath the sunshine’s balmy glow
Until I’d brought the storms that raged
And fought the battle with my foe
The self that is deluded
And determined to be bound
Attacks with rabid vengeance
As my cries to freedom sound

The depths of my discovery
That haunted me these live-long years
The clues, so reprehensible
To all that tried to keep me here
In chains of insecurity
The fear of being free
Of being light and magnitude
The power I now see

You can’t beat a cacophony
Upon the walls that keep you bound
Until you have discovered them
And know where they are found
You can’t confront the God you made
Your maker can’t defy
Until you find him standing
Deep within your self-fuelled lies

You cannot choose escape
Until you understand you’re bound
Can’t cast a restless beat upon your bars
Until they’re found
So make the mission of your life
(The quest will serve you well)
To find the edge of what you’ve made
The railings of your cell

Everything

The everything that you are

Pencil crayon drawing of a tree with round green bobbles for leaves and round red bobbles for apples!
Artwork by Holly Rose Thomas | The author retains all rights and permissions for the use of this image

Everything wants to be with you
Everything wants to know
The limitless scope of your peaceful hope
The certainty deep in your soul

Everyone wants to be with you
The everyone that you are
Everyone joins with the precious coins
That flow from deep in your heart

Everyone wants to love you
To discover the love that they give
As their deathly hearts convulse with a start
Roused as they come to live

Everyone wants to know you
’Cause knowing is all you’ve been
Since the day you were born as truth beyond form
And deathly limbs became green

Everyone wants to help you
As helping you we become one
We demonstrate how the love we are now
Is the catalyst, all is undone

Everyone wants to be with you
The fruit that your branches bear
Is heavenly food for the seeds that you threw
Onto ground that was fertile but bare

And now as we join in the sunshine
Of heavenly treasures so true
Our gratitude swells as we open the wells
That will nourish us as we push through

And trees that bear their own rich fruit
Are humbled as they grow
Your orchard of love is the outpouring of
Your truth — the truth we now sow

Alive Within Your Heart

An experience I received and that I cherish deeply — and pray to keep alive and powerful within my mind

Artwork by Holly Rose Thomas | The author retains all rights and permissions for the use of this image

Let me be created by you
On this day and every day
Let my heart be opened 
By the voice that paves the way

In this blessed instant
To the love I’ve always craved 
Opening, awakening to
Your beauty and your grace

No more do I depend
On those who walk in form
Now I am complete
Within the heart that’s ever warm

Ever rich in comfort
Ever offering me its own
Light that flows in rivers strong
That feeds the seeds it’s sown

Now I know your nourishment
Your warmth and gentle grace
Ever strong within me
All my darkness to replace

Now I know the strength of those 
Who walk within your love
Never more will care be worn 
While this mind’s thinking of…

Pondering and resting on,
Receiving what you are
I’ll never be alone
Now you’re alive within my heart