Month: February 2023

All I’ve Ever Been

Leave a comment

A love poem to water

Pink blossom trees overhanging a beautiful still lake, a gently sloping bank just asking you to sit for while then dive in!
Author image, thanks to NightCafe AI

I let myself be water 
As I finally choose to see
That deep within the mysteries
Of life, I’m always free

I let myself be water
As my tendencies to hide
Are loosening as the swell of beauty
Rises through my peace of mind

I struggled with my water 
Because I refused to see
That deep within the mysteries of the soul
I’m running free

Coursing through the fields of battle
Ever flowing rhyme,
Past such scenes of devastation
Guardians of time

I’d forgotten I was water
As I tried to be
Something that was static
Cast in stone amid the stream

In the dream of sanctuary
I’ve finally deigned to tell
Stories of the gratitude
That lift my heart to swell

With the water’s majesty
And with her sacred flow,
As I return to that which courses
Humble through the gloam

In gratitude I rise 
Amid the water’s folky rhyme,
Its purity immerses my
Intention to divine

The fear that I had lived within,
Believed myself to be,
It’s thus released and handed to
The flow of perfect peace

The mysteries that engulfed my mind
And left me crooked, bowed,
Are now revealed in candour
As my heart finds its way home

The spaciousness, a watery grave 
That’s separation’s tomb
Is waiting with her open arms
I flow into her womb

As I become the ocean
With such startling clarity
I recognise within myself
It’s all I’ve ever been

Just.. Wait!

Leave a comment

A perfect paradox

An ancient grove of trees, moss and colourful flowers with a path leading along the valley and up the mountain. AI Art Generator.
Author image, thanks to NightCafe AI

Just wait! Wait a moment
Do not troubled be,
That everything you had believed before
Is being released

Just wait! Wait deep within
The mystery that you’re shown,
Dismiss the need to understand
The beauty that you’ve sown

Wait! Wait for eternity
To open up inside,
It’s beating heart’s within your own
As you let yourself start to glide

Wait upon the moment
Of such glorious certainty,
That stops you in your tracks
And guarantees your future peace

Wait upon the something
That is pushing through the glebe,
Gasping for a breath of sunshine
On its tiny leaves

Wait within establishment
And watch its crumbling walls,
Apprehend its leaving 
As within, without, it falls

Take your prior complexity
Uproot it at its core,
Loose the mind that sought for freedom
In the dearth of ‘more’

Feel your way to present bliss
As you begin to see
That everything you’ve ever dreamed of
Lives eternally

Nothing here in form 
Can ever feed or ever give
The light you need
To understand what it is to live

Nothing here in form 
Can ever feed or ever raise
The light you need to see within
For you to feel praised

Nothing in the nothingness of form
Can ever show
The beauty that admits a glimpse beyond
To what you’ve always known

Nothing in the nothingness of time
Can ever be
What you are, what you’re being given,
Just you wait and see!

This Blessed Flow

Leave a comment

A poem about dissolving into the mind that writes the poetry

A moody cloudy red sky over a beautiful still ocean.
Author image, thanks to NightCafe AI

My mind, it thinks in poetry
I cannot quell this blessed flow,
As, hungry, I bequeath myself
To savoured riches I am shown

Cascading joys of ancient knowledge
Breaking through containered hoards
Of fantasy I drove before me,
Burdened by decisions worn

I humbly open to your mind
And let the hero of the dream,
The master I’d been playing
In the one repeating scene,

Return in his humility
To what he knows is ever true,
That all the meaning he’s been searching for
Is found in you

Between the saturated masts 
That line the wild tempestuous bay,
I’m redefined in solitude 
My fears are washed away

Remorse and ancient pity
Take their place now, side by side,
They’re sunk within the oceans
Of an ever grateful mind

And glinting on the surface
Of the ever changing whole,
Is changelessness itself
Arising in the wakening soul

It glistens at my heart as I 
In decadence disband
The citadel that was constructed
With my charred and earth worn hands

A limitless horizon
Disappears before my eyes,
The world succumbs to beauty
And a fire fills the skies

The fire meets the water 
And they merge into the one
That mystifies the mind
That separation has become

And I am lifted out of seeming
As I fall within
The body of this dreaming heart
That witnessed to my sin

The sin of separation 
Is now gently washed away,
As deep within the waters of the mind
I find my way

Tsunami Rising

Leave a comment

On being washed away forever

A very stormy sea with one enormous wave, a moody sky behind with the sun breaking through
Author image, thanks to NightCafe AI Art Generator

The depths of life that spring from me
As I decide, within your freedom
Now, to let these mysteries
Evolve within your certainty

I witness to the rising of the tide
Upon a swelling sea,
A wave ascending in my breadth
Encompassing all I have been

Then bursting forth through troubled seams
That tried to hold and held no more,
Exploding past the girth 
That I had tightened till my sides were sore

And as I seek to cast my net
In wider climes than heretofore,
I’m tumbled from the vessel 
I’d been sailing to the shore

A vast arising wells below,
Upsetting all the plans I’d laid
Within my static grieving woe:
A desperate heart resolved to hide

With windows shaken to their soul
And shattered glass upon the floor,
I’m hurled into reality
A course I’ve never known before

I feel the wakings of a mind
That’s never let the love of souls
Interpolate, become at once
A dazzling faultless star filled whole

And in these dreams where memory
Had held itself so fast and sure,
Capitulation bows to freedom
Devastation rules no more

I wake into the breathless air
The sunshine beating on my skin,
I rise as from the depths of care
To claim what life is nourishing

I’m reconfigured from the old
Interpreted all fresh and new,
The language that I spoke before
Has been released, replaced, renewed

And as I cry humility
Comes rolling ‘cross the pummelled sands,
Approaching ever closer 
To the place in which I stand

And as I laugh and let my mind
Be raised unto these heightened views,
I witness to the depths of life
Arising in myself in you

Ripple

Leave a comment

My lyrics to a beautiful electronic track by MVB

Image by author thanks to NightCafe AI Art Generator

Being with you’s as easy as breathing
You are inside my heart beating
Troubles arrested, come now healing
Tornado of love, I’m reeling

Within me this dream is waking
Relieved by the depths of my heart breaking
You whisper my name and I can hear you
Vibrations of your love make me true

Matt Vincent-Brown (MVB) created and produced this track, I contributed the lyrics and melody. We only wrote two tracks together but I love them. It’s here on SoundCloud if you’d like to listen to it as well.

I Only Want to Hold You

Leave a comment

A poem of discovering my home

Image created by the author with OpenAI Art Generator

The foxes have a hole
Within the comfort of the earth,
Their bodies curl together
In a gently warming hearth

Their tails wrap around their snuggle
Keeping out the cold,
The air is chill above them
But their comfort’s ages old

The birds they have a nest
Within the branches of the tree,
They rest together in the warmth
Of knowing they are free

They wake upon the morning’s air
And sing the moonlight home,
The atmosphere is wintry
But their hearts’ alive and grown

My heart is yours to rest within
My body’s out of time,
It’s energy is nourishing
The heart that is divine

The fountain at my centre
The pure vessel of my love,
Are gifts for your remembering
The grace that rains above

The only place the son of man
Has left to rest his soul,
Is in his brother’s mind
As we remember we are whole

The only warming body
That you have to lie within,
Is the body of the self
That holds us gently free from sin

We become the one
As we bring comfort to the mind,
That’s asking for the blessing
Of the heart that’s gentle, kind

We become the blessing
And our bodies perfect be,
As the fountain at our hearts 
Is opened to eternity

Eternally I love you
And eternally I see,
That my desire to hold you
To the heart that’s flowing free

Can giftly be a comfort
And no need a burden be,
I only want to hold you
In the warmth of certainty

Freedom’s Welcome

Leave a comment

Here are the lyrics to one of my songs

Author image thanks to NightCafe AI Art Creator

I don’t believe in the lightning that floors the trees
But in its passionate force I retrieve myself
Floating amid a dark storm I called grief
It’s a bolt driven home through insanity’s hold

And I won’t believe in the self that was hateful 
I’m regenerated, born into stability
Wrapped in the grace of my own last resort
I find gentle humility turning to port

And my anchor’s not tied to the sea’s rocky floor
Where it ripped up the surface and cut to the core
It’s invested at last in a promise that’s kept
As eternity melts into all that I’d wept for

And rids me of any last necessity
To hold onto my fear or to doubt that I’m free
As the sun glistens clear through the depths of the waves
My presence is here and my past is erased

I am freedom’s welcome
The increase in gravity offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

And cast into the fire of all I once believed
Is the certain release of all I have perceived
And incredulously, I find myself free
When I choose to accept total responsibility

And the only response I can give
To all that I see now to ensure it lives
Is to breathe it on home, and to know that it’s mine
’Cause perception’s a dream, and reflections divine

Are created the moment I open my mind
To a generous beauty that words cannot find
I allow myself here, I allow myself now
Because everything else is as boring as hell

And reality’s sight is so deliciously
Full of light and of freedom, the juicy totality
Rises to greet the new mind that I am
And all my reflections stand here hand in hand

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in sanity offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

Grace, so still, invisible to me
In each moment previously

Is holding my heart in the palm of its hand
Is providing the runway on which I can land
Is here and is now, in this space and this time
Is directing these passions, providing these rhymes

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in frequency offers my gratitude
Peace and security
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

We are freedom’s welcome
The increase in frequency offers my gratitude
Peace and eternity
The dream state released to a certain reality
Home, I’m home, I’m home, I’m welcome home

My One Desire

Leave a comment

On the breathtaking nature of love

Image created by author with NightCafe AI Art Generator

My one desire: to be with you,
To feel your tender hand
Upon my head, your gentle arms
Wrapping the present where I stand

My one desire: be near your heart
And dearest as you are to me,
To all you are and all that I
Have truly been in thee

Be nearest to the heart in me
Between the solstice and the bay,
That curves around the centre
And that shelters me at play

Be the wave that winds me
As I try to take the breath you stole,
And pin my arms upon my sides
As I release and fall

And drop — and peaceful, fall no more
Through sandy caverns, time-spent olds,
I am the timeless falling lyre
The eagle’s wings still holds

And as the drifting wails reach 
Your vessel rocking on the wilds,
My music rises and bequests
Itself to keep you as a child

Innocent to worldly claims
Delinquent to its raucous cares,
Untroubled by its lures and 
Dis-acknowledging its wares

I keep you as I hope to be:
In freedom from the woe,
Of pleading invitations
To a crude and fateful throne

My one desire: to be with you
And keep you safe from greed,
To nourish, through the crown that opens,
Every depth of need

To win with you the mighty throne
That takes us all the way,
To perfect and immaculate
And everlasting grace

There is no need that is not met
Nor that our love won’t be,
Surrendering so softly
To the part we play in thee

There is no competition
For the love that we have won,
For deep within complexity
Simplicity lives on

The Call to Dive Within the Soul

Leave a comment

Inspiration sparked by the mystical beauty of Teresa of Ávila’s ‘Interior Castle’

Image created by author with NightCafe AI Art Generator

Soul of wisdom, soul of truth,
Soul of blessed heart divine,
In the mansion of your truth
I rest within your precious climes

In sultry dusks intrepid hearts
Will rise to rein their glory home,
Their pounding power beats the turf
Devouring illusions sown

Within a grist that’s milled its troubled last
A thousand billion years,
That tortured itself with the past:
A myriad treaties for its tears

And suddenly it hears a sigh
Its own beginning breaking through
The troubled stance it sought continuance
Within its darkened truths

Admonishing itself at once
For failing heretofore to see
The power of decision 
In the mind that chooses to be free

Arise, arise, and hearken to
The deepest truth you cannot bear,
That rising through your choice for darkness,
Waking through a chorus fair

Succumbing to the glorious song
Angelic harmonies become
The coalescence of the soul 
Divided from the precious One

The sacrosanct, the chiming bell
That in each soul will ever sing
To welcome hearts that ache 
To witness to its clear and gentle ring

The call to dive within the soul
To taste the pleasures sweet and deep,
That humble minds can slide within
Its wealth of treasures here to reap

And rising, as the phoenix
In its mighty wings the power be,
To recognise illusions 
And to let the mind soar free

No fight is heard, no struggle won
For as you turn and look behind,
You recognise the past is gone
All are released, the things of time

From here within the instant
Of such powerful clarity,
The wisdom of your rising heart
Takes root within your majesty

Ever Known

Leave a comment

Words received in the wildness and openness of the full moon

Image created by author with NightCafe AI Art Generator

The wildness of the mind 
That is discovering its way home
It reaches to the mind
Communicating with its own

Joining in the sultry light
The ever rising moon
Is casting on the shrubs
That skirt the desert’s holy runes

It wanders in the scrub 
And finds its way by scent alone
To everlasting openness
Expanding through its starry dome

Into the gentle stillness
With the quiet night time sounds
Surrounding it, encapsulate
By air and solid ground

The mind that finds its way
Past evil traps to sacred ways
That travels forward to rescind
The painful darkest days

That casts intrepid light
Upon the core of what was heard
Just a moment previously
Unlearning all it learned

Unhearing all it heard
Now disillusioned to the sight
Of everything it thought it saw
Within the misty light

That opens into heartfelt sorrow
As the die is thrown
Into the abyss 
Of all that heretofore was known

Waking as from dreams of horror
Mysteries shatter, fall
Into a billion pieces
As the battle cries its call

Out across deserted lands
That bleak and sombre seemed
To lie in wait before you
Now transformed and blessed, redeemed

Into this courageous mind
That is washed clean, prepared for new
Enters the beginning 
Of a new and precious truth

Entering the sunset
Of a peace that calls it home
To where it’s ever tranquil
Ever nourished, ever known